One night they came. In a raven-black car. Crying in anguish, young Luba clung tightly to her mother as the car carrying her father disappeared down the street. Would she ever see him again? Would they soon come for Mother?

Growing up in Ukraine at the height of the Soviet Union's power brought many hardships. From surviving a deadly man-made famine to toiling in a labor camp, Luba faced one challenge after another. But perhaps most unsettling of all were the agonizing questions: Are the communists right? Is there really no God? And if He does exist, where is He?

As Luba and her son Sergie and his wife seek answers to these questions, they face discouragement and despair. Sergei is sure that if he could escape the tyranny of communism, he would be happy. But when that doesn't help, he is desperate. What could be wrong?

Slowly God led them to discover the truth: God is real—and He brings joy and fulfillment to those who serve Him. It was the answer they were looking for.

Table of Contents

Part 1: Days of Darkness

• 1. The Man-Made Famine
• 2. The Raven-Black Car
• 3. In Despair
• 4. Taken
• 5. "Let Me Go!"

Part 2: More Hard Times

• 6. Girlhood Days
• 7. The Labor Camp
• 8. Vladimir
• 9. Nadia's Visit
• 10. A Downward Spiral
• 11. "Is There a God?"
• 12. Emptiness

Part 3: From Darkness to Light

• 13. Sergei the Soldier
• 14. An Oppressive Land
• 15. Arthur
• 16. Becoming Jews
• 17. Desert Storm
• 18. "What's Wrong?"
• 19. A Glimmer of Hope
• 20. The Answer

Part 4: Onward in Truth

• 21. No Other Gods
• 22. The Mercedes
• 23. A Troubled Conscience
• 24. Pleasure—or Eternal Value?
• 25. Styoppa
• 26. The Ordination
• 27. The Mennonites
• 28. A New Church
• 29. Olek
• 30. Three Souls—One Destination
• 31. Broad Is the Way
• 32. "We Will Have to Part Ways"
• 33. Moving
• 34. Angela
• 35. Evangelism
• 36. The Kosenko Family
• 37. Luba's Memories
• 38. "Goodbye"

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